Getting emotional about Janissaries

Hello my free peoples of Middle-Earth,

"Main aisa kyun hun?"- Oh come on, if you're an Indian you know it, if not, just too bad...

So what's the connection between title and quotation?

The Jannisary is my top unit from Age of Empires III. Actually Janissaries were 15th century Ottoman soldiers, fiery, lethal and valiant. Their hallmark was that they were almost always not  of Ottoman origin, but were slaves from other regions trained to fight, kill and win massive battles for Ottomans. Their own lives were miserable...but who cared??

Well, I  have also been a Janissary somewhat. Interpret meanings for the modern age.

This admission at Pilani that currently I, mom, dad, and most friends are raving about...I don't deserve it. Really, for this, I have been made a slave, a machine, and cog in a wheel with millions of other cogs, have studied, "grinded", ignored the good life for two years, purposefully distanced myself from Harry Potter, without which I normally wouldn't pass a day. Its paid off, yes, but the guy who sat in that terminal to give the exam wasn't really me; it was a nerdier, more brilliant, alert and smart guy honed by two years of...well, sometimes I think, why did I have to do all that, why? 

I'm glad its over now, glad that the feathers have been dropping off for the past month, glad that I'm normal again, really glad.

So thank you all for reading one o' my worst blogs...haha

Janus