Ramblings in a new year

"Its a new world,
Its a new plan....
And I'm waiting for you...
Here I Am" - Bryan Adams, "Here I Am".

Well, so here we are!!! Brand new year, new clothes, newly expanded stomach caused by oodles of good food, new shoes, new "resolutions"(what shit) etc. etc.
...but a much older person.

19 years have flown by, and I guess its time to look back.

This holiday has been a mixed bag of sorts, a sort of compendium of joy and boredom. The 'joy' part was primarily in Kolkata, where all of us brothers ans sisters met up. First we saw two really amazing movies...."Kailashe Kelenkari" was special 'cuz for us Bengalis, Felu-da is as much a part of the Bengali sentient as is the taste of ilish or the sound of the Durga Puja dhaak. "Taare Zameen Par" is better, though.
Kolkata is one amazing city. It can fill you up with its sights and sounds.....and I love everything about it, from the rundown tramlines at Behala, the magnificent view of the river Hooghly, with its launch-boats, washermen at the banks, and the grey, dull fog that sets over it in winter, the old-house charm of New Market, to the swank malls at City Centre, Kolkata is one kaleidoscope of humanity, and I was lucky that, since I was mainly more with my brothers and sisters, all of us had a lot of fun. The fun, though, didn't only comprise tours and the like....there were also the winter evenings spent at our Deshapriya Park home, with us playing cricket, scrabble, or some other invented-on-the-spot game.

So.....if that's all the happiness, where did the boredom comes from? It just that I'm bored big-time from parental shackles.....if that's putting it a bit too harshly, I'm sorry, 'cuz my parents really are the world's best. Point is, I am seriously beginning to detest parental care and protection, and I don't know why.

I broke off from the typical I-personify-acads image after Class 8, when I'd been averaging about 95% in my finals for 3 years, and inwardly hating myself for it. I found something I could really put my soul into in the form of debating, where all my prizes and awards helped me believe I was NOT a nerd. Then vice-captainship came calling. The day that Shamik and I lifted the Best House trophy before the whole of St. Pats on Sports Day frankly ranks as the proudest in my life.

Then, again, parents took a real backseat I was packed off to RKM Vidyapith for my +2, a place with no TV or net. We were bound completely within its walls, no outside food, no clothes except the 4 uniforms provided, no musical programs except devotional songs, no other books or magazines than what the school gave us. And loads to study.

But rules are always meant to be broken, and the joy of doing so was beyond description. Feasts with "illegally" bought food (pre-ordered samosas and the like, lobbed over the school walls at an appropriate time and place), the regular 20-minute addas (9:30 to 9:50) every night in Room 5, stashing cheap porn magazines for later perusal in dormitory ventilators, occasionally being middlemen between our Arif-da and his lady love D______, et al. They were magical times.

And.....so......where does it all end up now?? In BITS, where there really aren't anymore rules to break. Where good jobs are just waiting to be taken. just being at BITS is more fun than I can ever imagine, and I'm really happy God has given me so much.

So, self-introspection complete, I find that I'm really happy. Of course, a lot is left to do....my grades aren't good.....and I would like to find a few girlfriends, but that's about it.

Besides, happy birthday to me! I'm 19 now. The number makes me feel all grown-up and shit, though I know that I'm not really as grown-up as I should be!!!

So here's to another great year!!!

Cheers,
SS

Sleep in BITS Pilani

"Strength doesn't lie in numbers
Strength doesn't lie in pain..........
Strength lies in nights of peaceful slumber " - Julie Andrews, The Sound of Music

Sleep is something that is very hard to find here. Pity, really. Dinner by 8:30 is a piece of shit(no, no, not literally).
So now its 12:30 in the morning and I'm too lazy to write another word.

Snooze......................zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Getting emotional about Janissaries

Hello my free peoples of Middle-Earth,

"Main aisa kyun hun?"- Oh come on, if you're an Indian you know it, if not, just too bad...

So what's the connection between title and quotation?

The Jannisary is my top unit from Age of Empires III. Actually Janissaries were 15th century Ottoman soldiers, fiery, lethal and valiant. Their hallmark was that they were almost always not  of Ottoman origin, but were slaves from other regions trained to fight, kill and win massive battles for Ottomans. Their own lives were miserable...but who cared??

Well, I  have also been a Janissary somewhat. Interpret meanings for the modern age.

This admission at Pilani that currently I, mom, dad, and most friends are raving about...I don't deserve it. Really, for this, I have been made a slave, a machine, and cog in a wheel with millions of other cogs, have studied, "grinded", ignored the good life for two years, purposefully distanced myself from Harry Potter, without which I normally wouldn't pass a day. Its paid off, yes, but the guy who sat in that terminal to give the exam wasn't really me; it was a nerdier, more brilliant, alert and smart guy honed by two years of...well, sometimes I think, why did I have to do all that, why? 

I'm glad its over now, glad that the feathers have been dropping off for the past month, glad that I'm normal again, really glad.

So thank you all for reading one o' my worst blogs...haha

Janus 

My Movie Addiction

The One line:
"Anything which has a beginning must have an end" - The Oracle.

This is the end of action movies...

Matrix is the one action movie I saw which made me addicted to action movies. So now for the salvation of all u poor action movie addicts I have released by own movie( backed by the Wachowskis of course ). It will free ur mind from action, it's that bad. 

 

So what r u waiting for? Grab the popcorn!!

Cheers,

Janus (I know Photoshop)

Just doin' nothing

Hello everybody!

Hem hem...to quote Anne Frank..."I hope to confide in you what I have never been able to confide in anyone else, and also that you will be my true and dearest friend"...nothing doing.

Now for the official introduction...

I am, a 18-something guy from Asansol, West Bengal, India. I have just given my class 12 exams and am currently doing absolutely nothing, hence the blog. Now, there are many guys who just blog, blog, blog for the sake of blogging, but I do hope I'm able to put in something really meaningful about myself, not a huge pile of cute nothings. 

hehehe...tall claims and lofty ideals! 

P.S. : nothing  seems to be a common word above.Well, it wonderfully summarises my mood n situation right now.

P.P.S. : What a horrible opening blog. Hope I get better with time...